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How in the world am I supposed to eat 1400-1700 calories a day?? Yesterday I ate less than 1,000 calories and was full. I drank lots of water, which I think curbed my appetite. I want to eat enough, but how can I do that without eating things that are unhealthy just to fill up my calorie requirement for the day?

Yesterday’s Food

Breakfast:

1 scrambled egg- 70 cals

1 slice of cheese- 60 cals

2 slices of whitewheat bread- 100 cals

Lunch:

1 green giant fresh steamers brocolli, cauliflower, & carrots in cheese sauce- 135 cals

1 medium baked chicken breast boneless, skinless marinated in fat free italian dressing- 300

Dinner:

3 slices oscar mayer turkey- 60 cals

1 slice cheese- 60 cals

2 slices whitewheat bread- 100 cals

I would have eaten more for dinner, but we didn’t get home from the gym until 9:00 pm and I didn’t want to eat a lot so late at night. Oh, and at the gym I did 3.3 miles on the treadmill brisk walking and some jogging. Burned around 300 cals.

I just wanted to see what kind of tips ya’ll have for making sure you eat enough, but still eat healthy.

I’m off to a better start today. And, we’re going to the gym again tonight. 3rd night in a row!! Lovin’ it!

Today’s food (so far):

Breakfast:

1 flour tortilla- 150 cals

1 slice of cheese- 60 cals

2 slices of Oscar Mayer ham- 46.6 cals

1 scrambled egg- 70 cals

total for breakfast was- 326.6 cals

And have already drank 40 oz of water.

 ADVICE??

This is especially true in regards to WEIGHT!!!  I am teeter-tottering between 205 and 207.5 and I am getting very impatient to be in the 100’s! I mean, GEEZ, only 5 lbs. away. I thought that would be so easy. Well…..it’s not. I do know that I am still working very hard and really getting my exercise in. So, even if the scale isn’t reflecting it, I feel healthier. This morning I’m going to do Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred dvd and then this evening when hubby gets home, we are going to the gym for 2 hrs. of fun filled cardio. Yippee! Last night, in 1 hour, the machines said I had burned 250 calories. Now, I’m sure their calculations are right, but it really does seem like for all that work and sweat it should be more like 700 calories burned. I guess I would have to run for 4 hours straight to burn that many calories. Now, if I can just get under 200 by the time we go on our cruise in May, I will be satisfied. Well, not satisfied. I wanted to be a lot closer to goal by now, but I guess there’s no use crying over drank milk and eaten oreos. Is there? I did order a whole new summer wardrobe yesterday to wear on the trip, and I’m excited about that. Only not so much excited about the sizes. But, at least if I’m wearing cute clothes that I feel pretty in, I won’t be so preoccupied with my weight. I ordered my size. I resisted the urge to order a size smaller and hope to get into them in a month. I figured that would probably be better for my sanity. I would have driven myself CRAZY trying to squeeze into clothes that don’t fit. Anyway, I joined fitday.com the other day, and according to it, I should be eating around 1700 calories a day to lose right around 2 lbs. a week. I know I have not been eating that many. Some of you guys gave me the same advice when I was wondering a few weeks back. It’s just so hard to wrap your head around “eat more…weigh less”. So, today I’m going to do my best to get in 1700 cals. and do my morning and afternoon workout. Then, Friday morning we’ll see what happens. For now, I’m going to have a bowl of cheerios for b’fast and baked chicken breast with green beans for lunch and I haven’t quite decided on snacks or dinner yet. Depends on what kind of mood I’m in. :)  Oh, and I love my sister-in-law to death, but if I have to hear her say that she’s fat one more time, I might just smack her. Seriously. The girl is 15 weeks pregnant with TWINS and she’s only gained 9 lbs. That puts her up to a whopping 138 and she’s 5′8″ tall. Gimme a break. I love you, but if you feel fat, talk about it to one of your skinny friends. They might sympathize. Anyway, that’s always been kindof a pet peeve of mine. Why is it that skinny people always talk about how fat they are around people who are obviously bigger than them? Just because I am big doesn’t mean I want to talk about your non-existent weight issues. Like, this one friend of mine, she’s a size 4. And, all I hear from her is how she’s such a cow and needs to lose weight and yadda yadda yadda. Drives me crazy. It makes me wanna say, “Well, if you think you’re fat, then you must think I look like the Good Year Blimp.” I would give my right arm to weigh what these girls weigh and here they are acting like their weight can even be put in the same category as mine. They eat whatever they want and never exercise and still have these perfect bodies. It makes no sense to me. And, when I struggle with every bite of food that I put in my mouth hoping not to gain an ounce or wondering what I need to do to burn that off as soon as I’ve swallowed it. I don’t really want to hear about you gaining a couple of lbs. when you’re pregnant and gaining weight is a good thing. And, I know, she’ll be the type that will have those babies and 3 weeks later, you won’t even be able to tell that she’s ever been pregnant. She’ll be back in her old clothes and sporting her bikini right after she gives birth. Which is great, I don’t wish fat on her or anything. She’s beautiful and some people just got good DNA. I’ll just want to kill her. I’m totally jealous, if you haven’t figured that out yet. Anyway, that’s all for now. This blog wasn’t really motivational or anything. Just more like me typing out my thoughts. Sometimes my thoughts are a little all over the place. But, hey, whose aren’t?!?!

Short post today. Got a TON to do before 6pm tonight. Just wanted to jot down how I’m feeling right now, just in case a week or 2 down the road I need to remind myself.:) Saturday, hubby and I joined the 24/7 Fitness near our house. (well, about 10 miles from home, but worth the drive). So, on Sat. we did cardio. I did 2.5 miles on the elliptical and burned (it said) somewhere around 290 calories. LOVE it! We didn’t have much time on Sat. b/c we got there late and childcare is only until noon on Sat. This morning, I went back for a Body Pump class. Let’s just say, I felt the BURN!!:) I am so out of shape, but I felt like I held my own in the class. It was really fun. Great music. Great instructor. She really took the time to help me do it right. I was the only newbie in the class today. Man, my muscles haven’t been worked like that in a LONG time. And, I feel great. SO ALIVE! Energy is through the roof!!! I’m seriously about to get up and clean my house from top to bottom!! And, a 6:00 tonight I’m meeting hubby there to work out togother. CAN’T WAIT!! I will have 2 whole hours to devote to cardio…elliptical, treadmill, bike. Whatever my heart desires. I should be able to burn serious calories in 2 hours. Right?!?! Hip Hip Hooray for free childcare at the gym!!! Tomorrow-6pm: 2 more hours of cardio. Wed.: Body Pump again!! Then, we are headed to visit our families for a long weekend. But, Monday morning, I will be right back in there!!! I probably won’t be able to move in the morning, but that’s definitely a good kind of sore.

One final note: I STINK at push-ups!! It is really sad. I tried really hard and did my best and didn’t quit. But, I know I must have looked some crazy kind of ridiculous!! That is one area I definitely will be working on improving.

I started on Buddyslim in late Sept. 2009. I had lost weight previous to joining here, and didn’t reflect that on my weight ticker. My heaviest weight was 250. But, that was at 9 months pregnant with my baby. My highest non-pregnancy related weight was 227. I weighed that when I got pregnant. So, I decided to change my ticker to reflect that loss. I wanted to be able to look at my ticker and see exactly how far I have come. Even though, I have a long way to go, I can see that 227 is gone forever and each week as I weigh in, I can feel good that I have actually lost 20-something lbs. instead of just the few pounds that have come off lately. I am continuing to work very hard, and can’t wait to see that ticker get under 200, then hit my mini-goal very soon! I know a silly little ticker may not mean much to some people, but to me it’s encouraging to be able to see it and update it as the weight comes off. It’s like a tiny little reward in itself.

My baby turned 1 year old today. My sweet little angel, so content, so mellow, so happy all the time. She is such a precious part of this family. I can’t believe that a whole year has passed! The whole pregnancy and delivery came and went like a whirlwind, so I guess it’s to be expected that the first year would go by just as fast. Before long, she will be walking and following her big sister everywhere. I’ll have my hands full for sure, then! When my oldest daughter turned 1 was when I started longing for another baby. And, already, I can feel that longing coming on. I wish I could afford to have 10 children. I love having them in the house. They just add so much life to a home. But, I think 4 will probably be our limit. And, I might have a hard time talking my hubby into that many. I think he’d be good with 3. We’ll just see. So, although I’m getting baby fever, I’m not going to do anything about it just yet. I have twin nieces or nephews on the way, so I’ll live vicariously through my sister in law for a few months.

Now, to the actual point of this blog.

I just said NO!!! I didn’t eat any pizza or birthday cake or icecream or chips and dip at Rylee Anne’s birthday party on Saturday! I could hardly believe it myself, but I didn’t. I was so proud that I was able to withstand that kind of temptation and not even feel deprived. I didn’t even miss it. Yay for me! I’m really sticking to this and already seeing some really great results. My energy level is WAY up!! I feel like a whole new person. I can’t wait to see how I feel when all this weight is gone! I will be unstoppable!!

Even bigger news!!! My hubby and I are joining a gym!!! It’s a place not far from home, it offers free childcare to members!!! So, we are going to meet there every afternoon when he gets off work and work out together! I am so excited about it! I think it’s just what we both need. Some uninterrupted “us” time to focus on getting into shape. The place is really nice and offers all kinds of classes like body pump, body combat, and zumba! And, cheapest price we’ve found!  We’re going at 3:30 this afternoon to sign up and do our first workout.  Brian stepped on the scale the other night and just about had a heart attack. He has gained quite a few pounds. Hard to tell just looking at him, because he’s so tall and carries it well. But, it’s there nonetheless. He’s still totally sexy to me, but he really wants to lose weight now. The gym was actually his idea. Anyway, the look on his face as he stood on that scale was priceless. He was totally shocked and horrified! I was like, “Yep, I know that feeling!” But, sometimes shock and horror are just what it takes to get motivated enough to do something about it.

So, today….Brian and I start working out together at a gym! He’s gonna be so embarrassed when I beat him out on the treadmill, because I’m already used to doing it here at home! I won’t gloat or anything. He’s still in better shape than me. He is just really competitive. Seriously, you should see him at a game of Scrabble or Monopoly!LOL So, this should be really fun, to say the least!!

So, I am just wondering if what I’ve read is true. Is a low carb-high protein diet the best diet for an insulin resistant person to follow?? A couple years ago, after I had my first daughter, I found out that I was pre-diabetic/insulin resistant. I had gestational diabetes through both of my pregnancies. Anyway, the other day I was just doing a little research about losing weight to control this and to prevent myself from becoming totally diabetic. I ran across something that was talking about low carbohydrates and high proteins (like the atkins diet or southbeach diet) being the most effective way to lose weight, keep it off, and get the blood sugar issues under control. It wasn’t an ad for anything. It was a news article. (can’t remember where I found it now) It made sense as I read, though, because carbs/starches are essentially turned into sugar once consumed, so if I don’t produce enough insulin to control the excess sugar. Then, wouldn’t that sugar be stored as fat instead of used for energy? I don’t know a whole lot about this, so I was looking for some opinions and/or advice. I decided to just give it a try on the Atkins diet and see what happens. And, according to the scale, I have lost 4 lbs. in as many days. Is that even possible?? I am sticking to lean protein like chicken and fish, leafy green veggies, and 20 carbs a day for the first 2 weeks. I’m 4 days in, and so far so good. I just really want to make sure that this is a healthy way to lose weight. I’ve read all kinds of stuff online about it, and get a mixture of good and bad reviews. Success stories and Failure stories. Just like with any other weight loss program. The believers and the nay-sayers. I guess the only way to form an opinion of your own is to try it and see what works for you. I just am feeling very stuck with weight watchers. It doesn’t feel like the weight is coming off no matter what I do. And, maybe, I’m just reaching to find an answer. But, if cutting carbs and sugar to a minimum will get this weight off of me, lower my cholesterol, and get the blood sugar issues under control. Then, I am more than willing to give it my best shot.

When I weighed in Monday morning, I was STILL at 209! I was so good all weekend. I don’t understand why I didn’t lose. I feel stuck. I am working out. I am eating right. I feel like I am drowning, I’m drinking so much water. I haven’t even had so much as a Diet Mt. Dew. ONLY water! I am working out 4 days a week. Mon. and Thurs. I do treadmill. Tues. and Fri. I do Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I’m following weight watchers. But, also making sure that I eat good protein and not much bread. I have had NO sweets! I’m also eating dinner early-like around 6 or 6:30 and not eating ANYTHING after dinner. So, what do I need to be doing different to see some results. I know that the number isn’t the most important thing, but it is a major part of it. For me, I NEED that number to go down to feel successful. I don’t feel my clothes getting looser or anything like that, either. I do have more energy, so that’s a good thing. But, nothing else seems to be happening lately. I haven’t come far enough or lost enough to be hitting a plateau. At least, I don’t think I have. I guess today I just feel discouraged. After I weighed Monday, I was extra good with food and exercise. Yesterday, too. So, this morning I weighed again just to see what happened after those 2 days, and STILL 209! I’m really aggravated with myself for not reaching my first mini goal of under 200 by Feb. 1st. I REALLY wanted to be in the 100’s by now. GEEZ!

Sorry for the rant. Guess I’m just getting it off my chest. Typing my frustration is keeping me from going to the kitchen and eating a bunch of junk. That’s what I always do. If I don’t see results when I think I should, I give up and sabotage myself. I’m NOT going to do that this time.

So, what do I need to do??? I want these 10 lbs. gone, so that I can start working toward the next goal. This one has been hanging over my head for too long. My highest weight was 227. That was 3 years ago. I’ve been longing for the 100’s for that long. It’s time to get there. I’m trying SO hard. What else do I need to be doing? Should I change something? What am I doing wrong??

HELP!

I have decided to start weighing in on Monday morning instead of Fridays. I think, for me, that will keep me accountable over the weekend. In the past (every weekend), I have tended to be too lenient with myself (I BLOW IT). I think that is partly because I know in my mind that I don’t have to weigh in again until the following Friday. So, if I am making myself weigh on Monday, then the weekend enticements won’t seem so enticing. So, I weighed this morning just because I felt like I needed to, and I had gained 1/2 lb. YUCK! But, I am still eating right and doing moderate exercise, so I’m not mad at myself. I haven’t been cheating. I guess, sometimes the scales just don’t reflect the work. But, I’m positive that it will start to. I am going to weigh again Monday morning. Record that weight. Then, weigh every Monday. That’s the plan. Also, I just ordered Sweatin’ to the Oldies! LOL I can’t believe I did that. But, I remember thinking it was fun when I was a kid and my Mom and me would do it in the livingroom. So, it should be here in a day or two and I can incorporate it into my treadmill and 30 Day Shred alternations. I think my 3 year old will really enjoy it, too. Her very favorite thing to do is put the tv on one of the Sirius music channels and turn it up REALLY loud and we dance around the house like crazy fools! GOOD TIMES! She’ll probably really get a kick out of watching me “dance” with Richard Simmons. Anything to get moving, right?!?

Oh, so I wrote about my sister in law expecting her first baby in September….well, it turns out she is expecting BABIES in Sept!!! It’s TWINS!!! We are SO excited! But, we are also very nervous for them. She has a few medical issues that could possibly cause some complications during pregnancy. But, we are just trusting in the Lord that He is going to keep these babies and their Mama safe and sound. Keep them all in your prayers. They are 2 of the best people I know. We’re are just praying that everything will be smooth sailing physically and emotionally. And, we are expecially praying that her Husband, these precious babies’ Daddy, does not get redeployed. He just got home from Iraq. We do NOT want him to have to go any where else! Especially now that there are 2 beautiful babies on the way. I can’t wait to be an aunt!!!

That’s all for today. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

I’ve been checking in on here regularly, just haven’t blogged in a little while. I weighed in on Friday morning and maintained. Didn’t lose, didn’t gain. So, I’m still at 209. Then we had my little girl’s party Saturday, and I was…well…bad. I had pizza and birthday cake. Then for dinner, we had mexican food. Then, yesterday for lunch I had Milo’s! YUM!!! My very very favorite! But, I’m doing great this morning. So, hopefully I can work off the weekend by this Friday. We’ll see.

At Sarah’s party, I had several people comment about my weight. They all said how they could tell I was losing, and that I looked good. It made me smile. Of course, I was wearing my spanx! So, I did look smaller than I really am. But, I’m still gonna give myself a little credit. Most of the people at the party hadn’t seen me since Christmas, and I weighed 216 then. So, I have lost 7 lbs. since then. My little girl had such a fun time at her party. And, at this very moment, she is dressed up like Tinkerbell (one of her gifts was a dress up trunk) and she’s “flying” around the house! SO CUTE!

My mom is headed this way today. She’s going to stay with us until Thursday. I’m looking forward to it. I miss her.  I feel like since she got married this past summer, I never see her. I’m glad she’s found someone. She went through a terrible time when Daddy died. They were married for almost 36 years. For a while, I thought she would die, too. Living without him seemed too hard for her. But, she’s doing much better now. And, although, I still have a few unresolved issues with the decisions she’s made, and still have a difficult time adjusting to her having another man in her life. I really am glad she was able to find happiness again. I’m glad she decided to come and spend a few days with us. Her husband is out of town working this week. I’m planning a “slumber party” for tonight. Sarah is looking forward to it. I told her we would have popcorn and watch a movie with “Nona” (probably Wizard of Oz) and play Candyland! I will probably do pretty good this week with eating and exercise, because Mama will be here to watch the girls so I can work out and she will help me stay on track with food. Who knows, I might suprise her one morning and serve her a special breakfast….maybe an egg white sandwich. LOL

Goal for the week was to be between 207.5 and 208.5. Would you believe I weighed in at 209. So, I lost 2 lbs. this week and I am SUPER excited about that! I didn’t quite make this weeks goal (by 1/2 lb.) But, I’m not crying over that at all. I am feeling REALLY like TOM is on it’s way. So, that 1/2 lb. could quite possibly be from that. Even if it’s not, 2 lbs. lost is great. I’m glad to be seeing some reward for my hard work. So, today is a good day! I am not having a cheat day. I am going to be good (hopefully) all weekend.

Tomorrow is my little girl’s 3rd birthday and we will take her out to eat at her favorite restaurant. Casa Blanca-the Mexican Restaurant. She calls it “Quesedilla”! But, I can get something there that is somewhat healthy and not order cheese dip and not get rice and beans. Then we will take her to Build a Bear. This will be her 3rd bear. It is a birthday tradition. Of course, next weekend we are traveling home to have her party with all our friends and family at Chuck E Cheese. She is SO excited about that. She asks me every day if it’s time for her party yet. My Sweetie-Girl is growing up SO fast! I cannot believe that 3 years ago today, I was in labor about to bring this amazing little person into the world! It took 36 hours of labor to get her here. That’s why her brthday is tomorrow. We went to the hospital on the 14th, and she waited until the 16th to be born (15 minutes after midnight). But, the first thing I said after I saw her was, “That wasn’t so bad. I could do that again!” She has brought so much joy to us the past 3 years. She truly enriches my life beyond what I can even express. I love that little girl with my whole heart! She IS my heart! Birthdays are so special.

So, I’m thinking about going back on birth control for a little while. I haven’t been on any kind of hormone b/c in over 2 years. So, I’m not sure if I want to do it again or not. But, I know that we don’t want to try for another baby…at least for the next 8 or 9 months. And, most of all, my cycle has been getting more and more erratic with each month since I had Rylee last March. I got my period back in June when I stopped breastfeeding and my cycle just keeps getting longer and more out of whack, and more miserable. All of my “adult” life, I have had a VERY regular cycle. Every 28 days like clock work. Never even 1 or 2 days late (except when I was pregnant). Now, it varies anywhere from 26 days to 38 days. And, right now, I’m on day 39 and still haven’t started, even though it feels like I will any minute. I can’t even count the # of pregnancy tests I’ve taken in the last 6 months, thinking I must be preggers since I’m SO late. So, even though, I don’t really enjoy the thought of putting the artificial hormones into my body. I’m thinking about going back on it mostly to regulate my cycle again. I’m kind of afraid, too, because the first time I went on birth control, 3 months before I got married, I started putting on weight. I’m not saying it’s the pill’s fault. I’m just saying, I was “dieting” during that time and was still gaining weight. I almost didn’t fit into my wedding gown! Then, after the wedding, the weight kept coming. When I stopped taking b/c I dropped 15 lbs. almost instantly. I just don’t want that to happen again. I don’t want to be putting anything into my body that can cause more harm than good. But, at the same time, if I don’t get my cycle regulated, I might just go completely insane. So, I’m not sure what to do. When I mentioned it to my husband, he was all for it. But, that’s just because he HATES the b/c method we use now (condoms) and he gets totally freaked out every month when I’m 4 or 5 or 9 days late and have to take a test just to be sure. I think it would give him peace of mind. But, I just don’t know if I really want to.